Dugan Propaganda
He is No Fool who gives up what he Cannot Keep to Gain what he Cannot Lose
Sunday, September 30, 2012
Humble apologies and ramblings
Friday, February 3, 2012
Delivery Day
Today is a day that I knew was coming but almost felt like it would never come. We are going to the hospital this morning, my wife Erin has a C-section scheduled for 12:30pm at Baylor All Saints Downtown Fort Worth. We get to welcome our son Graham into our arms.
I want to thank each of you that have been so faithful with your prayers during all that has happened over the past few months. God has sustained both the body of my son and the hearts of my wife and me. I know that he will continue to be faithful, never leaving us for even one second.
I would lift a couple of prayer requests to you this morning:
1. First that the surgery would go smoothly for my wife and son, that there would be no complications from the actual procedure.
2. That Graham’s lungs would be able to breathe on their own once his umbilical cord is cut. Or at the very least he has some progress of lung development that would be increased through the aid of a breathing machine.
3. That Erin would be discharged as a patient as quickly as possible so that she can see Graham in the N-ICU. This especially becomes important if they transfer him to Cooks Children’s Hospital and Erin has to stay at Baylor.
4. That no matter what happens this morning, we would have the strength to give God the true worship he deserves.
We have great faith in our doctors and the people caring for our family. But they can’t save Graham. If healing comes, it will be from God alone.
To Him be the praise, Blessed be the Name of the Lord.
Friday, October 21, 2011
Thursday, October 20, 2011
Good Time at the Hospital
2 Thess 3: 16 – “Now the Lord of peace himself give you peace at all times in every way. The Lord be with you all.”
Wednesday, October 19, 2011
Monday, October 17, 2011
A Little Humor Can Go A Long Way....
So, in light of the heaviness that is upon us and those that have been praying for us. I wanted to let y'all in on a conversation that happened between Erin and Parker. We were driving to get Parker a haircut while down in Houston. Erin is really good at sustaining conversation with Parker. But this one had some unforeseen humor. I couldn't resist laughing out loud.
Erin: Parker, Do you see those cows over there?
Parker: Yeah!
Erin: What are they doing?
Parker: You tell me. (Parker's new favorite phrase to just about any question we ask him....)
Erin: Are they eating?
Parker: Yeah!
Erin: What are they eating
Parker: Grass.
Erin: Does Parker eat grass?
Parker: (with a cheesy grin on his face) Nooo!
Erin: That's right. What does Parker eat?
Parker: Dinner.
Erin: That's right. What else does Parker eat?
Parker: Snack.
I had trouble paying attention to the road at this point. I love the simplicity that Parker sees the world through. It keeps me grounded. Tonight we had a really horrible bath time, that involved three swats to his bare bottom by his daddy. I hate the discipline part of parenting. But, Parker doesn't know that God wants him to honor his mommy and daddy. We have to explain that to him. He sees things so differently. Throughout this whole ordeal with baby Graham, he has been such a trooper. He knows that Graham and Mommy are not feeling well. But we pray every night that God will help them to feel better. He really believes that Jesus cares about them, and that Jesus is going to make them better. He doesn't know anything else. He truly has a childlike faith. He trusts so freely. I may be the one that God has entrusted to show Parker the lessons of life and the Bible. But I definitely have some lessons to learn from my son.
May God grant us the faith like Parker has. That we trust Him freely and cast all our cares at His Feet. God alone is able, He alone is worthy of our praise.
Tuesday, October 11, 2011
Immeasurably More
We heard the results of Graham's final urine test. All his ranges were in the "normal" category. This means that Graham's kidneys are at least functioning in some form or fashion. That means that the surgery we have been waiting for will be able to take place. That means that Graham will have a great chance at making it to a live birth fully developed.
Let me be clear, this is a huge hurdle that we have bounded. But the surgery is not designed to fix the blockage in Graham. It simply provides a way to bypass the need for Graham to use his bladder to put amniotic fluid around him. There is no chance that this surgery can heal him. God is the only option we have for complete healing for Graham. God may choose to do just that and Graham may be born with no ill effects of any of the things we have spoken about in the past week. Or Graham may still have several problems with his kidneys, bladder, lungs or any other combination we haven't even considered.
But no matter what the outcome we experience, we will praise Him who loves us the most. We will give glory to the God that knew Graham even before time began. We will honor the Father who grieves alongside us. God is our father, Jesus is our savior and foundation. We rejoice in this great victory he has lead us through and we are ready to see what He will continue to lead us through.
Psalm 91 says that we can claim God as "My refuge and my fortress, my God, in whom I trust." We can make "the LORD our dwelling place," and we have. We are trying to cling as close as possible to Him, to live directly in His will. We know that he protects His saints with His mighty hand and we don't want to be out of His reach.